Martin, colored pencil, 8x10 inches
I just finished a new portrait in colored pencil, just in my sketchbook, for the online group, Julia Kay's Portrait Party. This group has been very inspiring to me, and I've enjoyed being challenged to do my best work. This is Martin Beek, whose paintings I have admired for quite a while. I have another started, but life has gotten in the way.
What a roller coaster of emotions the last year has brought, thanks to last year's cancer diagnosis. For the past three months I have been on what I called my cancer vacation, since in March my CT scans showed that radiation had apparently shrunk my abdominal spots, and eliminated some gynecological ones. So, no oncology treatment for a few months. I got my cataracts fixed, and we went on two cruises. I've had two haircuts, which made me improbably happy.
Then, in May, some symptoms returned, and I had a biopsy which did not indicate cancer. This week I had another CT scan, which came back looking OK, and still another biopsy, which did not come back looking OK. For a day I felt confident, and now today, not so much again.
I am learning that this is what life with cancer is like. Sometimes hopeful, and other times terrifying. Sometimes both in the same day.
So, now I have another whole raft of medical appointments, and I do not know what the doctors will plan for me. I'm not at all sure how many Monday evening figure drawing sessions I'll get to this summer, how many times I'll be able to visit up north, or if I'll be able to, as I hoped, write and lead a new cemetery tour featuring some fascinating local people. In short, I cannot really make firm plans.
But I should be able to draw more. I just need to keep focusing on what I can control, and take it one day at a time.